La Crescenta, California
84° F
You know you're getting old when you're genuinely surprised when someone reminds you of your upcoming birthday.
In the United States, there are milestone birthdays such as the 16th when no longer relying on one's mom to drive one to a date becomes a possibility, 18th when one can choose to smoke and/or vote (though doing both at the same time is prohibited...), and 21st when one no longer has to borrow an ID and hope the bouncer can't distinguish one Asian American from another. After that, the birthday become somewhat monotonous... and eventually dreadful. In my case, I began to dread my 30th birthday 2 years prior to the actual day... an early onset of mid-life crisis of some sort.
Since my 30th, birthdays have lost their significance to a point where I don't even remember my own until someone reminds me. My father called me to check what I was doing tomorrow. "Nothing much," I replied. "If you don't have anything planned for your birthday, let's have dinner," he said. Though someone reminded me couple of days ago, I already had forgotten my own birthday... again. I guess, in a way, I wanted to forget. I wanted to forget the reminders of my diminuendo from invincibility to frailty...
4 comments:
Then I better save my birthday wishes for you >_< I see birthdays as a great way to spoil myself with something I would have been too stingy to get in normal days, like the gold ring I boought earlier this year :)
Anyway, don't beat yourself up and have a nice birthday ;)
happy belated birthday!! don't worry, you're still as invincible as ever!
shan. Thank you for your attempt to cheer me up, but you wouldn't say that if you knew me then and now. I used to play both football and volleyball in high school. Rode a bike about 8 hours a day working as a bike patrol in college and practiced Judo and HabGheeDo (off and on)... These days, it takes every bit of my will power to stop myself from running out of the Bikram yoga... while lying on my back doing nothing but trying not to pass out half of the time... Just the other day, I was exhausted after a few laps around a kiddy pool. Sad. Really sad.
aww, i felt that way exactly last summer. i tried to run once, and had to stop after 5 min because i was so completely winded and exhausted. no joke, no exaggeration. i was really disappointed: how could i have let myself degenerate into this state; i was so active in high school? it was very very sad, indeed. you should just start with baby steps (like yoga :), and you'll build up into better shape again!
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